If you’re anything like me, you are both excited and frightened about the start of Camp NaNo. I am excited that it is here. I have so much I want to do. At the same time, I ask myself “what have I gotten into?” Will I fail this time?
Yes, I am aware that the good folks over at NaNo say that everyone who participates is a winner, but what if you don’t feel like one if you don’t make it? I know I didn’t when I only did 17,000 of 50,000 words for Camp NaNo a couple of years ago. I am very glad I only have to do 10,000 this year. It isn’t quite as frightening.
I have been meaning to do another short story for my short story blog for about a month. Perhaps now, in camp, I can. It is already a couple of weeks overdue. Even that feels like I am failing.
The first year I did NaNo, I was sure I wouldn’t finish. I finished with about 4 days to spare. The second year, I didn’t try. The third year, I finished it on the last day. In fact, the only time I haven’t finished my goal was in the first Camp NaNo I participated in. Yet, I am still frightened every time that this time, I won’t make it.
Why do I put so much pressure on myself? Why does anyone? Why would anyone want to participate in this roller coaster of a ride we call Camp NaNo? Is it fun? Not during the month. At the end, however, when the “winner” badge shows up, it is all worth it. The prizes aren’t bad either.
The best thing about NaNo is the way you feel about yourself when you are through. You have accomplished something. No one can ever take that away from you.
Now, off to the races. It’s NaNo time!